i regret for losing times to write down all those experience and random thoughts that filled my jars. eh di sana marami akong binabalikan para sariwain, pero im here now to list some of it and to share some of it.
maybe some that would read of this may know this someone that been leading my previous article.
sya lagi bida eh. she's a friend that i been lost contacts for many months, a bestfriend that i did had a silent feud before, i did lost tracks because of her, marami akong kinalimutan,madaming mahahalagang moment ang pinilit kong ibaon. maramin pagkakataon na inalis ko sya s abuhay ko, but i end up back in track again with her.may malalim akong pinaghugutan para gawin ang bagay na yun, pero dumating pa din yung point na bumabalik pa din kami sa dating kami. to make all of you understand who im talking about. i'll give you a lil hints, she's a best friend i thought a best friend to me, someone whom i can count on too in times i needed her most, but she end up turning her back on me. i learned to move on, i learn to forget her, there are times that i didn't include her in my friends list anymore. but times goes by, time heals all wounds even though i didn't cure myself, it healed by itself. though the scar are still there and time to time i feel the pain, but still i learnd to forgive her and start to going back to track again, sometimes i wonder why it's easy for me to forgive her compare to others that i count times or look for the times to forgive them, what is so small special to her compare to others? why people like me who has a pride above myself, easy to take it low down after all we been through? maybe because i learned to count the good things over one bad things that she done.
i learned to open different circumstances and lead it to positive point to earn the brighter sides of the word "friendship"
random 2
i had this dilemna about a friend again, masyado kasi syang complicated.
i had this attitude "im a person with a pride above myself but i know when and to whom i put it down"
kung sobrang below the belt na, kung sobrang niyurakan na ang pagkatao mo, kung ilang daan masamang salita na sinabi sayo ng paulit ulit bibigyan mo ba agad sya ng pagkakataon para sirain ka ulit? bibigyan mo ba sya agad ng pagkkataon na gawin nya ulit sayo yun? aba teka, maghunus dili kana, ibang usapan na yun diba, iba ang TANGA sa MABAIT, at iba din ang ANGHEL sa IMPAKTANG UGALI. reality check hindi tayo nabubuhay sa unang panahon, wala na yung taong walang alam kung paano itama ang pagkakamali, nabubuhay tayo sa mundo kung saan kaya natin alamin at pakibagayan ang tama at mali. hindi ko sinasabing mali ang magpatawad, na mali ang magbigay ng second chance. ang punto ko lang eh matuto ka sa bagay na iyong ipinagkamali noon. mahalaga ang salitang pakikisama, mahalaga ang salitang patawad, pero ang sakit na dulot ng isang nagawa ay mahirap kalimutan, kasi dito ka nya ihuhulma sa tama mong daan. isang maling desisyon maraming apektado,,ok sana kung tunay ngang kasayahan ang madadama mo.
maaraing nasisilaw ka sa makamundo nilang buhay, at kaya mong kalimutan ang naging madilim mong dinanaan na sila ang may kagagawan, at handa kang kalimutan ang mumunting kutitap ng alitaptap na nooy iyong naging gabay upang makaalpas ka dilim na iyong kinalagyan, sabi nga " sa pagiging mapamili ng isang tao sa magaganda at naglalakihang kumikinang na bato sa kanyang dinadaanan, hindi nya nabibigyan ng pansin ang pagkislap ng isang dyamante sa kanyang harapan.
random 3:
the real secret of happiness is not what you have or receive. it's what you share and give. maybe im not blessed to material things but im so blessed with people that push me to be better. im not perfect to lot of things but i had this courage to turn the negative into positive sides. maybe i don't have penny in my pocket but i can selfless a smile.
random 4
i read in blogsite about this perfect couple. people can call them perfect family, they have successful career. all things written for them are all praises because they really look like perfect. but behind those persona there's a bad side most specially the wife hidden on her smiling face, here's the story, because their influential people they can easily conduct fund raising events for the needy. constituent gave without hesitation coz they know it's for the good cause. ending of the event, they earned almost millions. so it means lot's of needy people can have this in-kinds from goodhearted constituent of this influential couple. but in times of distributions, most half of the money is missing and what is left was named to the couple as a sole giver of those amount. what the heck happened? where's the half of donation went? and why the put their name as a sole giver where they didn't donate a single penny? upon reading the story i lost my admiration to them. all the good words written for them has doubt. they're a preacher, they are the leader of this christian group but it turns out what they share about good things is not working in them. *sigh* a perfect couple turns out to be an ugly couple.
“I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.”
― Marilyn Monroe
