Day 12: What got you into this challenge?

bakit nga ba?? hehehehhehehe

the truth is, i been fascinated to have a blog and post anything i like, but before, super tamad ako, such a lazy girl, like what i always said, i'm a writer but i don't write? gets?! hehehehehhee
 this blogsite? i recover it after trying different id's and password.
i have my blogsite in friendster before, i still have all my post before friendster old say goodbye,
then i signed to tumblr, i post some but not as frequent like this,
sabi ko nga ngayon pangangatawanan ko na talaga...ito na siguro ang magiging matinong blogsite ko..promise..

i was being mentioned in twitter with one of my favorite writer, and one fan being tagged to, i dont even remember what we're talking about, chikahan na kami ni twitter fanatic, then suddenly napunta ako sa profile nya,,dun nakita ko na naka attached yung blogspot site nya,,then binasa ko yung mga latest post nya.
may nakita akong interesting na post.,at eto nga nga yung 30 days challlenge, as far as i remember nagsisimula na din sya sa challenge na yun,,and then habang nagbabas ako, nag sink in sa isip ko na why not try it? tutal natututwa nman ako dun sa ibang challenge eh,,
lam mo yung nafefeel mo din yung challenge to try? saka mahilig talaga ako sa mga sinasagutan na mga ka ekekan eh..
parng umiislambook lang! hahahahahahahha

sabi ko nga, paninindigan ko tong chllenge na to..tingan mo nasa 12 na ako,,hehehehehe kahit minsan, yung halos lahat hindi pa natatapos,,need to edit pa.

madami kasi sa challenge na ito ang guston kong sagutan,,,feel na feel ko yung iba eh,,hahahahahahahaha
18 more to go pa sana mapanindigan ko talaga,,,
at promise magiging active talaga ako,,,

kukuracha!!!! *_^

Day 11: Write about your loved one (ex. crush, boyfriend etc.)

i choose to write about my ex crush..

we can called him "eyeliner".
supre crush ko talaga sya, but i never had the chance to tell him my feelings
coz i was sooooo afraid,,
afraid in-terms of getting hurt in the end. because i know we will not be last forever.
we're both living in different world (that's my term) and i don't want to try coz i know in the end i might regret it. love is indeed sacrifice, you need to learn to give somethings for you to have a good chance in return.
sometimes love is a gambling game, darating yung point na ma foforce kang tumay dahil alam mo umaasa ka na manalo, pero darating yung point mo na manghihinayang kang tumaya, kasi malakas ang chance na matalo ka, lalo nat lam mo ,a mahirap ang laro na papasukin mo,,hindi ka sanay, hindi mo alam ang taktika, hindi mo makakaya ang pressure ng lro, kay magiisip ka na wag na lang, dahil ayaw mong masaktan and sisihin sarili mo sa huli.
ayaw mong isapalaran ang kapirsong swerte or saya ng pagalaro dahil alam mo sa isip at puso mo kakambal nito sakit din sa huli.

eyeliner and i had unfinished business and i want to end it here, so both i and him can move on, most especailly in may part.

dear eyeliner,
i treasure all those times i'm with you and forever i will remember it.
i can't played with your games coz i know we might regret it big time and i want to thank you for teaching that lesson coz i realize, i'm matured enough to choose the right to wrong.
we might be happy for s short time but in return of this i will blame half of me for longest time, and i dont want that kind of scheme.
much better to have friendship relationship with you or than to be my enemy.

dont worry about me, like i said im mature enough to handle circumstances, i can get through it,

i know you're trying your game again to someone, hope you win this time
good luck to both of you and may you find your happiness with her.

shannon

Day 10: Write the differences between you and your best friend

i have many best friends, but i already mention Joan on my previous blog, and i wanna credit my other bestfriends to this challenge to fair enough.

because this is my own blog, i am entitle not to mention their name,,for the sake of privacy?  nah, for the sake of our friendship.

they have different characters, and i want it to share it in a way not to hurt each of them or get offended, or not to feel any pressure and envious about everything i might tackle here.
i don't want them to feel anything bad, or got misunderstood, and i know they'll understand..hehehehehehehe

friendship 1
she's petite and very lovely
friendly
so pretty and very stunning
she has fair skin
very quiet and respectful
i never heard her curse someone
has big appetite
afraid to try new things,
low self esteem and confidence,
very obedient

friendship 2.
lovely
open minded
much braver than me.
friendly
like in a gambling games, she's a afraid o lose a bet that's why she's a afraid to play the games.
lacking of strategy.
afraid to be rejected
unadventurous
not techie

friendship 3
very pretty
open minded
afraid to show herself to much.
respectful
independent
meticulous


it's really hard to write our differences,
what i wrote are some of those traits that i know we're different, the rest re all same.
i didn't elaborate some of my traits coz i already open my cards when i wrote theirs.

DAY 9: a picture of you when you were still young

that was me (the girl at the back 3rd from the right) and my cousins/playmates.

(from left to the right) denden, madel, ardee, joy (partly hidden) me, my brother ninoy with open hands, looks like praying for friend chicken! hheheheheheh and ineng,

i dont even remember this picture.

while writing this, iniisip ko talaga kung malala ko pa, but i failed. kung ngayon nga madami ako di maalala eh yung noon pa kaya? kaloka ako eh,hehehehehehehe

si ardee mukhng may pasalubong sa nanay nya,

si denden walang muwang pero kita ko pa din malaki nyang mata! hahahahaha

si ninoy madasalin pala nun, pero bakit di ngayon?

si joy egray pa din,,di kasi makita eh...ehhehehehe

si madel kung maka pose parang walang pagbabago ngayon,

 si ineng naman parang suot na pamasko eh! hahhaahahhaha

syempre ang pinakahuli, si shannon talagang astig pa din noon at ngayon!!!

hahahahaahhahaha

nakakamiss ang childhood days,

yung paglalaro namin ng chinese garter, bahay bahayan, piko, patos, luksong baka at tinikat ,lutu-lutuan

pagluluto ng pancit pancitan (dahon) at pag gawa ng juice gamit ang bunga ng alugbati, pag gawa ng medal gamit ang dahon ng cassava

yung panonood ng cedie, tom sawyer,  bananas and pyjamas, machine man, bioman, sarah ang munting prinsesa, voltes v etc.

DAY 8: describe you perfect day

how can i say if this is my perfect day" how can i say that this is the day that i will never ever forget in my entire life?

very ironic right? in thousands of days had passed thousand of them too that i might say is a perfect day,
why i say that its perfect? if i'm questioning about how perfect day was in the first place?

simple, i say perfect day bcoz, in those thousand of days had passed, i'm still alive!
breathing and kicking! safe and sound! no matter i'm in pain or broken, i still find it perfect day,
coz no matter what my heart is broken, still,,,its breathin!

every time i open my eyes in the morning,it's surely a perfect already!

each of us has different definition of perfect day.

like winning the lotto feel like its a perfect and lucky day, (2 balls in a row)
saw your crush (buo araw mo kahit di ka nangitian)
got perfect exam,*pag sinusuwerte nga naman* (thanks kay seatmate at sa kodiko) nyahahahahaha
perfect date with your bf/gf (khit sa jollibee lang kumain, ayos na)
got promoted in work..(crush kasi ng boss eh)
nakapulot ng 20 pesos sa daan (png fishballs na din, pde na!)
sinagot na ng nililigawan (kahit katanghalian nililigawan at kahit binabantayan ng kuya at ng daddy)
na libre ni boss (bday kasi)

madami pang dahiln kbkit naituturing na naging maganda ang araw para sayo,,maliit mn or mlaki ang dahilan nito, and mahalaga naramdaman mo ng  kaligyahan..
kasi kakambal na ng perpekto nd kasayahan, dail ang hiwaga na ibinibigay nito hindi natin mabigyan ng kahulugan basta ang nararamdaman natin ang kaginhawa

there's a lot of reasons why we describe it as a perfect day for you, no matter how simple or extravagant it is, no matter how small and big it is, what important is that you felt the happiness within.
because the word "perfect" intertwined with the words of  "happiness". because the mysteries given by it is incomparable to the the feelings that we felt through it.

i will used sun rise and sun set as a metaphor

because every time i see a sun rise, i see the new set of begginning

 and everythime i see the sun sets, one thing need to end coz another beautiful day is waving!

coz i believe in old saying that
"in every beginning there's an ending, and every ending there's a new beginning."

Day 7: If you were stranded on an Island, who would be with you and which limited 10 items would you two have?

i got so thrilled everytime there's a question like this, hehehehehehehehe
it's kinda feeling of odd but i like it!
i know some of you encountered stuff like this and to think you mention someone who's very close to your heart right? a boyfriend/girlfriend perhaps, a family member, love ones etc.
for me to make a different's  i chose someone I've never met in my whole entire life, yeah i know HER, but we're not friend but i soooooooo like her,,,i'm indeed a huge fan,
and i imagine long time before " how is it to be bestfriend of her, how is it be to get a long her, or how's the feeling to get to know her with your naked eyes and bold ears and tell her everything that you want to know..
and you know the feeling of being helpless in an island with someone who never experience without extravagant things, in a remote island where no one help you but your self, in an island that everything you need are nowhere to find except for those island what to offer,,
it's very interesting right?!
hehehehehe me and my imaginations!!! :P

dear folks let me introduce to you the person i want to stranded in an island, applause to one of my big idol.
a very popular glamorous star,  socialite, an heiress, no other than PARIS HILTON!!!! ^_^

some of my friends knew that i idolized Paris  maybe some of you will make a face and have question in my mind "why Paris? there's a lot more better than her? she''s blah blah blah blah!!!"
 i bet a very negative right? i know hehehehe coz i been question myself,,many of us knew Paris in one sided, the negative side of her, her scandals, addictions, her night life and lot more things, but most of us didn't see the other side of her, and that's what i like her.

very wild ng idea ko no to bring like her in a remote island? this is my blog,,i can do what ever i like! hahahahaahhaha..kung gawin kong katulong ko si paris sa isla,,kung gawin ko syang hunter ng animals para may makain kami, magagawa ko,,,hehehehehehe
pde diba?!! hahahahaha,,but im not like that,,magpapaka seryoso na ako sa mga post ko..
pero gagawa din ako ng crazy post but not now! not in this challenge! :)

what's my aim to chooser her?
ofcourse you know paris right, what life she had? the wealth, the fame and e-breath teyng (everything)!!
for sure marami syang hindi nararanasan ng mga usual thing in life surviving coz she can afford everything  she live in a life where in a snap of her fingers she get what she wants with out working on it,,

kaya mo bang m visualize nasa isip ko ngayon? like paris live sa island?,,
imagination starts now!! :D ala survivor lng ang peg namin..hehehehehehe

dahil entitled kami to bring 10 limited items na kailanga namin eto ang aming lists,

a comporter

toothpaste

cooking materials

a rosary

bath soap

a bolo

toothbrush

flint

book

swiss knife

hindi sa pagyayabang,,kaya kong manirahan sa isang remote island basta meron akong dala na gaya ng mga ito. kaya kong umakyat ng puno  para makaakyay ng bunga,,kaya kong gumawa ng apoy at magluto,,kaya kong makagawa ng bahay sa anu mang gamit na makikita k dun, kahit inumin ko tubig ng dagat (wag lang umatake amoeba mo) hehehehehehe..all in all kaya kong mabuhay dun..dream ko ngang makasali sa survivor eh, coz i can dwell a life in an island..

i want paris to be with me, coz i want her to realize what she's missing, i want her to know the other side of reality that she was blinded of, i want her to know and use the tokens she has in a good and meaningful way.
i can't stop her for making not right but i want her to see the strong connection to make it right. there's a lot of things she misused and taken it by granted, i want her to show the importance of those small things that make others life evolved into a pompous changes. coz the path of our destiny fulling us forward and no mater what we do, we cant stop it, and we need to forced our selves to go and step to the thread of frontier to live the given life.

Day 6: A picture that makes you happy

Lots of people believed that happiness comes into wealth, if your rich there's no reason for you to be sad. if you have tons of money, you can buy everything even happiness.

but many of us believed that the real essence of happiness not comes from pennies,

but on how we appreciate simple things on their simple worth. life doesn't run on how big the  prize we got on playing main games, it's on how we play and enjoy it.

i was wrong when i say if i have money, i can buy happiness. when i was in a moment that i got what other people wish to have, i was suppose to be happy right? i got almost everything i wish for, but suddenly i can't feel the real essence of happiness, i feel so empty, i feel so vulnerable  by then i realize not all the things extravagant can be a source of happiness, nor a token for laughter. but as we go walking through the path of life, there, we can get the true meaning of the word ''happiness''

on behalf of this day challenge, i'll show you my indeed source of happiness,

through them, i may give you lil spot to find the character that been hiding in me! :)

you don't need to be a psychologist to interpret the images to find the answer. coz the pictures shot it self..

my source of happiness.

my family

                                                         my 3 bandits (my nephews)

van russell and rein hayden

ryztof

cousins and bff

friends and colleague 

sunset

coz i believe in the word saying "in every ending, there's a beginning 

me looking at the sunset in marina de pisa  italy